I crave you. I crave your kiss. I crave your arms around me. I crave your touch. I crave your laugh. I crave your smile. I crave your eyes. I crave your voice. I crave your presence. I crave being with you.
I can still feel the outline of your shoulder blades on my fingertips, and the softness of your lips as they find my neck. No matter where I am physically, I am always back in North Carolina, tangled up with you."
jem carstairs??? nah what a nerd what a— [trips] [hundreds of thousands of photos of Jem Carstairs spill out of jacket] w-what a fuckign loser i these arent mine im just [gathering them up frantically sweating] listen i just listen fuck [thousands of pictures of Jem Carstairs scatter across the floor] shit fcuk im holding them for a friend just listen
Got to see my husband for the first time in weeks this weekend.
Yesterday his family was there, so the visit wasn’t really all that amazing. I mean, it was great for me to see him and be near him and for Noah to finally see his dad (he cried the second he saw him - my heart ahhh) but today was amazing.
Today, I picked him up at 8 & we spent most of the day in my hotel room just being together —also about an hour or two in, he started getting frisky lol. Which tbh I was HOPING for but still, god he drives me crazy. I ended up going to the bathroom to change into a dress because we were SUPPOSED to go eat somewhere nice (that never happened, hahah we got McDonalds) but he followed me in there and after a minute or so of some steamy yes/no banter of what we SHOULD be doing (which tbh wasn’t quite convincing, I had a hard time saying no with his hands where they were and considering the fact that I really didn’t even want to say no). That ended with him literally lifting me onto the counter and…well. Ahem.
Noah fell asleep not long later and uh. Well. Ding ding. So that’s twice within like an hour. And neither of those times were protected in ANY way. No BC, no condom, not even a pull-out. Which I’m into because I’m ready for baby #2 any time but it was surprising because I wasn’t sure if he was ready for that but uhhhhh hahah that was amazing.
Then we went to the mall, then we came back to the hotel and watched Doctor Who while cuddling. Noah still slept. Then we only had a little while left and I was trying not to cry the whole time, so we went and bought him a knife thing and a bungee cord he was told to buy, then I dropped him off back on post…Cried like a baby. Noah cried also. I actually think Juan was crying too, but hiding it…I really can’t wait til he graduates… <3
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friend: what happened?
me: this scenario I created in my head got intense